Recently I was pondering an unpleasant phone call I received from someone who was quite angry at me for an unintentional act I had done with the best of intentions. As I listened respectfully to the indignant ranting, I understood why this person was upset. Something completely unrelated to me had just happened in this person’s life, and he felt scorned, ignored and perhaps unimportant. For that reason, the action I had taken was misunderstood within the framework of what had just occurred in this person’s life.
When I thought about it, I was tempted to just write this person off as “a jerk” or worse. But then I realized that the outburst of anger and jealousy did not indicate who this person is. It simply reflects where this person is in the journey of life.
We all pass through phases in our lives. As infants and toddlers, we worship our parents as the all-knowing gods they seem to be. As adolescents, those once-worshipped people become clumsy and old-fashioned in our eyes. Later, as struggling parents ourselves, we see them as more experienced and wise. We understand their folly.
Years ago, I lashed out at someone very near and dear to me; someone to whom I owe a huge debt of gratitude. Why did I lash out? It burst out of that place -- where I happened to be in the road of life. I mistakenly thought I had paid my dues in loyalty and hard work, and therefore I thought I deserved top billing in this person’s heart. Like a child filled with sibling jealousy over the attention of a parent, I wanted to be loved best.
Yet, we cannot earn love. Love happens. And at that moment, when this person responded to my anger by simply telling me that I was “petty” – it was one of the greatest gifts I have ever received.
Oh, I didn’t want to believe it. But I had to. I was being petty. And I say it was a great gift because it was a new beginning for me. It helped me to see myself in a way I had never before been able to see.
Again, my pettiness did not define who I am. It merely showed where I happened to be at that point in my life.
I did not want to be petty. But not being petty or jealous meant letting go of my need for approval, recognition and love. This experience started me on a journey to get approval from within – to fight and win my own internal battles in order to do something that really mattered.
It was then that I realized I needed to make a difference in the world on my own terms. I let go of the need to get anyone else’s approval for anything in my life.
It was then that I established my mission: To share my knowledge with the world. To reach those who have never considered that as humans, our consciousness can reach far beyond the limiting boundaries that society has established for us. To raise the consciousness of humanity.
But there is only one of me. So to reach the masses, I must at times stand on a mountain and shout. In other words, I announce classes on social media. I share videos or blogs. I create new content that I feel is useful. And I cannot live on air, so I also sell my courses.
Some people find this irritating: “Why does she advertise?” They assume it is all glory and thunder I seek. But it is not.
In fact, it would be so much easier to sit back and enjoy our home in the country, grow our vegetables and play with our grandchildren.
In truth, right now, I am working almost around the clock to fulfill this vision to reach the world with the knowledge of Controlled Remote Viewing, which I believe to be the survival skill of the future. I want to help you and everyone I can – to become all that you can be. To live smarter! To be one step ahead!
And if fulfilling my mission means I have to advertise, as disagreeable (and expensive) as I find advertising to be, I will do it.
There are those who misunderstand, who judge, who feel threatened by seeing me make these efforts.
In the past, I would have pulled back in fear of displeasing anyone! But the current, more confident me realizes that the negative reactions of some people simply indicate a lack of understanding. Again, it doesn’t prove who they are. It simply shows where they are right now. And I do not judge them, because I have walked in those shoes myself.
So if you are doing your best to put one foot in front of the other, day after day, inching along in your progress to achieve a dream, don’t allow anyone else to stop you. YOU are the only person you have to please. Don’t compare yourself to anyone else. Just be you, and follow your path with persistence, love, faith and determination. Eventually the naysayers are left behind in the dust of mediocrity while you burst forward, making your mark in a race where only true iconoclasts win.
Good luck to you!