And although I truly don’t believe in the finality of “death” as we call it, that doesn’t change the fact that there is now a knowing that the personality I enjoyed is no longer around to hug. There is the moment when my thoughts drift to that recently-departed person, wanting to ask this or that – and having to remind myself that the opportunity to hear the sound of that special specific voice or the laughter we shared will now have to wait until I join them in the hereafter.
How Will I React?
We never know how we will react to the death of a loved one until it happens. We think we are prepared, but we often don’t take into account the many sub-texts and layers of death. There are so many symbolic meanings: An end. A beginning. A loss. A sense that something is missing.
Symbolic Deaths and the Loss of Identity
And how many deaths do we experience in ways we never considered? The death of a job, which often causes the death of a certain identity or self-image. The end of a relationship is also a type of death. Each “death” challenges us to question “Who am I without ______ in my life?”
What Are We Here For?
For whatever reason, I have always had a sense that my life serves to allow me to experience a wide range of diverse situations, emotions and events so that I can literally empathize with just about anyone.
And because I feel so close to you, I just have to be honest and let you see me, warts and all, as I process a whole new reality without those special loved ones within it.
How Do You Grieve?
Last night, my husband commented, “You grieve very differently from most people.”
“Oh?” I responded. “How so?”
Pausing a moment, Jim said, “You put on a brave face and do what needs to be done, smiling and acting normally. Then a wave of grief hits you, and you go within to process alone. Then you are back up, doing whatever needs to be done. Then a wave hits and you go within again. You have this up and down method of grieving.”
Actually, I think that is probably how many people process grief. It is definitely an up and down roller coaster ride of emotions.
Learning to Know Thyself…
There are many ways in which the practice of remote viewing has helped me, but most specifically, it has been in that I have become more aware of emotions, reactions and the reasons behind them. CRV helped me learn to see things about myself more honestly. We have to deal with success and failure in CRV, and the ego sometimes takes a beating. But it is all a very gentle, loving path of progress and growth.
Nature Therapy
Meanwhile, I have been spending more time outdoors, helping my husband build a greenhouse and enjoying walks with the dogs. When sadness or a sense of loss hits me, I sit down and feel it, and then I focus on the many happy memories I have of each of the four loved ones who recently departed this realm.
Jim building the greenhouse.
The greenhouse coming together.
Appreciation and Gratitude
Thank you once again for understanding why I haven’t been quite as on top of everything lately – especially communicating with you. Don’t worry; I am mostly back. But as Jim says, I will be coming and going for a while, as I continue to ride the roller coaster of life.
Stay safe and warm and healthy.
Much love,
Lori
PS -- Stay tuned for an upcoming letter with my predictions and recommendations for the future. AND… Back by popular demand, Lyn Buchanan and I will be doing more LIVE, FREE webinars for you! Keep an eye on your emails for announcements.
I grieve more for my animal companions than I do for humans usually.
I understand your process of grieving, it seems very similar to mine. Up and down and going inside.
I am so grateful for your CRV 4 part classes. Just recently, I did your classes and have recommended them to family and friends, I knew would get it and enjoy as I did. Of course, everyone asked what was the target and I told them, I cannot tell you, you have to take the course. Anyway, I nailed the target. Tried to talk myself out of believing I had it because the target looked very similar to a place I had been and recently saw on TV. I was amazed with myself and thrilled how easy it came to me.
Thank you, Lori!
Thank you for sharing these precious experiences Lori.
Hi Lori,
I just saw you on our sat tv programming show...doing remote viewing.
I am an empath ...sensitive ..way too emotional cancer sign.
I had an experience several years ago I've been wanting to find someone to transgress my experience....
I wonder, could you assist? I'm interested in your link and will read more.
Jacki
I definitely want to know what to expect in the future. I feel terribly unprepared at this moment.
How lucky you are that you can build your own. Greenhouse. The physical work is rewarding and you can feel,happy looking at the done project and all,the wonderful life it will support and support you with home grown food.
I think remote viewing is natural it is similar to astral traveling which is when your astral body goes out. Know that Just your mind goes out in remote viewing. We have Many potentialities to grow into as we evolve as humans. But as some say, we have. To read the users manual. And learn to manage our own mind and emotions. Until it happens, are you cannot imagine what will happen. You can just trust that we can have a bright future. ?
Love you. Doing your masterclass and hoping to do a course soon.